1:45 am
Sunday, June 08, 2008
My body was too sore to move so I din wanna head out. Stayed at home with Jackiee in the afternoon, till it was time for her to leave and head out with her bunch of lunatic friends. Mom was at work, earning her bacon. Therefore I'm stuck at home, cleaning the house and cooking dinner for mom. God.. how long do I have to tolerate this??
Just to make matters worse, I went through a pretty Fucked up day today... well done Cat -__-
A piece of advice for my dear readers and whosoever is looking here, NEVER think you can handle more than 2 groups of friends ( especially when they hate each other..)
If you think you're strong enough to handle it, then by all means, go ahead. If not, you either make a decision or combine the two into one. I thought I could handle it over the years..but now, its getting out of hand.
I feel like a whole different person since I left high school. I'm more 'on my own' now.. Yes, selfish at times but still care for people. Help them whenever they need it.
I never liked ASKING people to listen and TELLING them about my problems.. When its a severe problem, some people can see it, some don't. But I don't expect them to help me or anything.. because in the end, its MY PROBLEM.
I don't like to interrupt people with their daily activities like school and other stuff. I like to put someone else's interest first then mine..that's me and I can't help it! I have this concept of.. "Let's talk about you first and then talk about me later.." If there's one thing i hate, its people who constantly complain, nag, whine.. ( I'm not reffering to anyone)
If someone has a problem with me, please do not hesitate to confront me. And when I mean confront, I mean through the phone so that i can hear you, or face-to-face so I can see and hear you. By doing that, i can try to understand more on how you're feeling instead of guessing it when we "argue" or talk through the MSN or whatever. Like seriously? A few words and some people can tell how i'm feeling? Wow.. amazing.
I HATE IT when i have to go through this.. some times when this happens, I seriously don't want to talk to the person. My thinking was, "go fuck yourself.. I don't want to start this with you, I'm fucking tired." But then I couldn't do that cause I just can't? I can't runaway from the situation and leave it hanging there. Where will it lead to? A huge GAP in our relationship.
I agree.. friends are important. If there's one thing i would like to say to that person, is that I DIDN'T DO THIS INTENTIONALLY. Its just who I am now and you gotta except it. And if i did something that totally hurt your feelings then I'M SORRY..
I don't where this is gonna lead us.. but whatever. I'll do whatever it takes to make sure this relationship is still intact.. its a promise.
Now, I fucking need a drink. GOODNIGHT!
Just to make matters worse, I went through a pretty Fucked up day today... well done Cat -__-
A piece of advice for my dear readers and whosoever is looking here, NEVER think you can handle more than 2 groups of friends ( especially when they hate each other..)
If you think you're strong enough to handle it, then by all means, go ahead. If not, you either make a decision or combine the two into one. I thought I could handle it over the years..but now, its getting out of hand.
I feel like a whole different person since I left high school. I'm more 'on my own' now.. Yes, selfish at times but still care for people. Help them whenever they need it.
I never liked ASKING people to listen and TELLING them about my problems.. When its a severe problem, some people can see it, some don't. But I don't expect them to help me or anything.. because in the end, its MY PROBLEM.
I don't like to interrupt people with their daily activities like school and other stuff. I like to put someone else's interest first then mine..that's me and I can't help it! I have this concept of.. "Let's talk about you first and then talk about me later.." If there's one thing i hate, its people who constantly complain, nag, whine.. ( I'm not reffering to anyone)
If someone has a problem with me, please do not hesitate to confront me. And when I mean confront, I mean through the phone so that i can hear you, or face-to-face so I can see and hear you. By doing that, i can try to understand more on how you're feeling instead of guessing it when we "argue" or talk through the MSN or whatever. Like seriously? A few words and some people can tell how i'm feeling? Wow.. amazing.
I HATE IT when i have to go through this.. some times when this happens, I seriously don't want to talk to the person. My thinking was, "go fuck yourself.. I don't want to start this with you, I'm fucking tired." But then I couldn't do that cause I just can't? I can't runaway from the situation and leave it hanging there. Where will it lead to? A huge GAP in our relationship.
I agree.. friends are important. If there's one thing i would like to say to that person, is that I DIDN'T DO THIS INTENTIONALLY. Its just who I am now and you gotta except it. And if i did something that totally hurt your feelings then I'M SORRY..
I don't where this is gonna lead us.. but whatever. I'll do whatever it takes to make sure this relationship is still intact.. its a promise.
Now, I fucking need a drink. GOODNIGHT!
