11:10 pm
Sunday, January 20, 2008
WHY WHY WHY?!?!
Honestly, I feel rather quizzy and STRESSED about a whole lot of things.. If only mom didn't bring up the topic about "THE FUTURE", I wouldn't feel the way I'm feeling now.
True, I DREAMED of studying overseas.. but not that SOON?! Just thinking about leaving the family & friends.. and not seeing them for 6 months is just TOO MUCH for me! I admit, I am not an independent person. This is all too much to think. I doubt I'll be able to sleep in Peace tonight.. =(
So the usual routine of getting up and going to church, did happen. Went for mass, stood with Jackiee at the back since the place was so packed and there weren't enough seats to fit 4 people. Din pay attention during mass. Then Jackiee deserted us to go meet her BUNCH of friends for lunch. And yet again, leaving me with the folks.
Its like this, I'd feel damn guilty if I left them too, since Sunday is meant to be FAMILY day.. i just dunno how Jackiee can do all this. Its so SELFISH of her!
Anyway, went to N2 market for lunch. Mom bought some things from the market before making our way home. I have a Korean test to sit for tomorrow so I managed to do some studying this afternoon while my parents bummed and slacked infront of the telly.
Then that TALK mom and dad were giving me.. Telling me to pack my bags and LEAVE. Wah.. they just shoot me without warning. They told me to think about it, for my future. Some of the things they said are infact true but at the back of my head, my mind is telling me that its not right!! Argh..
Dinner was awful.. sorry mom, but it was! It was like WAR food but I shall not complain..we should be thankful that we have food on our table.
I shall go do some more studying.. but then again, I'm distracted!
Jesus.. Fine, I'll just watch Heroes now. Chao!
True, I DREAMED of studying overseas.. but not that SOON?! Just thinking about leaving the family & friends.. and not seeing them for 6 months is just TOO MUCH for me! I admit, I am not an independent person. This is all too much to think. I doubt I'll be able to sleep in Peace tonight.. =(
So the usual routine of getting up and going to church, did happen. Went for mass, stood with Jackiee at the back since the place was so packed and there weren't enough seats to fit 4 people. Din pay attention during mass. Then Jackiee deserted us to go meet her BUNCH of friends for lunch. And yet again, leaving me with the folks.
Its like this, I'd feel damn guilty if I left them too, since Sunday is meant to be FAMILY day.. i just dunno how Jackiee can do all this. Its so SELFISH of her!
Anyway, went to N2 market for lunch. Mom bought some things from the market before making our way home. I have a Korean test to sit for tomorrow so I managed to do some studying this afternoon while my parents bummed and slacked infront of the telly.
Then that TALK mom and dad were giving me.. Telling me to pack my bags and LEAVE. Wah.. they just shoot me without warning. They told me to think about it, for my future. Some of the things they said are infact true but at the back of my head, my mind is telling me that its not right!! Argh..
Dinner was awful.. sorry mom, but it was! It was like WAR food but I shall not complain..we should be thankful that we have food on our table.
I shall go do some more studying.. but then again, I'm distracted!
Jesus.. Fine, I'll just watch Heroes now. Chao!
